Friday, February 20, 2009
!
okayy here are just a fewww. i have to clear some space on my computer to put on the pics from my camera. dont know how long that will be. but hereee
Bows & Ruffles
are two of my favorite things.
this white one i saw at the forever 21 in utah, and i loved it!! too bad i didnt have any spending money =[
this white one i saw at the forever 21 in utah, and i loved it!! too bad i didnt have any spending money =[
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i thought
i would never hate California. but i hate California. what the heck is here for me??? nothing.
=/
I've been having a lot of depressed days lately. I've been thinking too much. when i think too much, that's when i get depressed.
i just want to sleep.
and never wake up.
ugh. i want to go back to Utah.
i think i've found my heaven:there. in utah. with the ice cold air, clean air. and the snow. oh my gosh. the snow. and my sisters. of course. that's my heaven.
so let me sleep...
i just want to sleep.
and never wake up.
ugh. i want to go back to Utah.
i think i've found my heaven:there. in utah. with the ice cold air, clean air. and the snow. oh my gosh. the snow. and my sisters. of course. that's my heaven.
so let me sleep...
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
TODAY
in about 30 minutes, i will be driving to Utah with the Sorensons =] ! i can't believe how perfectly this worked out!
just a couple of days ago (last friday actually) i realized i really wanted to go to utah this weekend so kayla can teach me to snowboard. plus we have a four day weekend; so it would be the perfect time. kayla said she wished i could come up...but we both knew it was impossible.
thennn anna sorenson said on sunday that they're going and i was like "ugh! no wayy i wanna go". and she said "oh you should come with us!" but nothing came of that, and i didn't think anything would.
so i was talking to kayla and told her the sorensons were coming up and shes like "yeahh you should come up with them!" and then YESTERDAY anna calls me, leaves a voicemail and says i can totally go with them! i wanted to cry when i was listening to the message, i was soo happy! sooo i just had to convince my mom to let me miss school on thursday, and i had to do my math test that i would miss, today at lunch.
see?! worked out pretty perfectly! and now anna is on her way to pick me up!!!
so i have to go, probably wont be on till next week some time.
i';; take lotsss of pictures! =]
just a couple of days ago (last friday actually) i realized i really wanted to go to utah this weekend so kayla can teach me to snowboard. plus we have a four day weekend; so it would be the perfect time. kayla said she wished i could come up...but we both knew it was impossible.
thennn anna sorenson said on sunday that they're going and i was like "ugh! no wayy i wanna go". and she said "oh you should come with us!" but nothing came of that, and i didn't think anything would.
so i was talking to kayla and told her the sorensons were coming up and shes like "yeahh you should come up with them!" and then YESTERDAY anna calls me, leaves a voicemail and says i can totally go with them! i wanted to cry when i was listening to the message, i was soo happy! sooo i just had to convince my mom to let me miss school on thursday, and i had to do my math test that i would miss, today at lunch.
see?! worked out pretty perfectly! and now anna is on her way to pick me up!!!
so i have to go, probably wont be on till next week some time.
i';; take lotsss of pictures! =]
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
My New Favorite
ballerina. Anna Pavlova. She's beautiful. She made ballet famous in the 1920s. Or something. She was really good though. =] look her uppp
"Play the last measure very softly."
Monday, February 9, 2009
today has been one of those days
Where I just don't want to do anything. I really didn't want to dance today and I put no effort into it. Ive barely done any of my homework yet. And I'm not going to do my English essay which was due today. I fell asleep when I got home and I didn't go to illusions. I have a headache right now. And there's so much left that I have to do. But I just cant get myself to do it. My eyelids are heavy. I just want to go to bed and not have to wake up at 5:00 to go to seminary then school. Ughhh
Sunday, February 8, 2009
TWENTY FIVE
ughh this is stupid but everyone's doing it on facebook. i don't really want to do it on there because i don't want people reading it haha. so I'll do it on here.
1. when i love something, i really truly love it with all my heart. it's painful how much i love things.
2. i love college football. preferably USC. me and my sisters are the biggesttt football fans. Brianna is definitely the biggest though.
3. I'm not very smart. I've never gotten straight A's like my siblings. i always struggle and get C's on my report cards every time. my parents might think it's because I'm not trying but i really am trying as hard as i possible can. i don't know what's wrong with me.
4. I'm depressed a lot, but i don't show it. i don't really want people to know. but sometimes i do want someone to know; so they can help me and comfort me, but i don't have anyone to do that. I cry probably almost everyday. I cry myself to sleep a lot.
5. i love the Twilight series. whenever i want to be put in a good mood and feel happy, i go and read it. and even if i just want to cry, i go and read it.
6. i don't have any real friends. i don't think i ever have. except for one person that's come pretty close...Brenna Lutz. we've been best friends since 6th grade.
7. I'm really artistic and creative. i think that's my gift, not being smart, but having an artistic side.
8. i dream about being a famous fashion designer and living either in New York on the Upper East Side, LA in Beverly Hills, or in Newport Beach, right on the water.
9. If fashion doesn't work out, i want to be a photographer.
10. I love my sisters. They are amazing examples to me, and i wish i can be living in Utah with them.
11. Even though my brother annoys me beyond belief, i tell him almost everything. He always knows who i like and everything. He's the one i vent to. and i can almost fully trust him not to spill all of my secrets.
12. i really want a boy. haha. somebody i can just hold and hug and kiss. someone to keep me warm and that i can tell everything to. someone who won't judge me, and will always be there for me.
13. i HATE dances. homecoming, prom, church dances, whatever. i hate them. I'll try everything to get out of them. they're stupid and awkward and immature.
14. but i love to dance. mostly lyrical and jazz. i wish i started dancing when i was 5 so i would be amazing right now, but whatever. i guess I'm pretty good. at least, that's what people tell me. and i love watching ballets. i wish i was a ballerina. it's the most beautiful thing. it's calming and peaceful and graceful. i love it.
15. i love to read. but I'm a horrible reader. i read super slow, and i get distracted easily. a lot of the time I'll read a sentence without really reading it, so i have to read it again and again until I'm really focused and i know what it's saying.
16. i love to cook and bake. i think it would be cool to have my own bakery or cafe someday. like in stranger than fiction or something.
17. I don't feel like i belong in my family. i never have. i always feel left out and not wanted. i don't know where i belong. also with friends- i have never felt really truly wanted.
18. i have asthma and 80% of the time, it's really hard for me to breathe. it sucks
19. i cannot wait for my future. i want so much to get married and have kids. i want 5. three girls and two boys. i don't usually tell people that because they'll think I'm weird. but i really love kids. the reason i want 5 is because of a family i used to babysit a lot- the Dalands. they have 5 kids, they're not the easiest to take care of, but they're amazing and they love each other. that's what i want.
20. i want to build my dream house. somewhere super close to the ocean, with a lot of land and a nice view.
21. i love going to concerts
22. I'm a really easy movie critic. i fall in love with basically every movie i see. but there are definitely some i don't like.
23. i have headaches every day, and i think i might be addicted to ibuprofen.
24. i really like learning, but I'm just not very good at it.
25. I love listening to classical music. it's the kinda nerdy side of me. but i love it. it makes me so calm and happy. and sometimes sad, if i want it to make me sad. haha
1. when i love something, i really truly love it with all my heart. it's painful how much i love things.
2. i love college football. preferably USC. me and my sisters are the biggesttt football fans. Brianna is definitely the biggest though.
3. I'm not very smart. I've never gotten straight A's like my siblings. i always struggle and get C's on my report cards every time. my parents might think it's because I'm not trying but i really am trying as hard as i possible can. i don't know what's wrong with me.
4. I'm depressed a lot, but i don't show it. i don't really want people to know. but sometimes i do want someone to know; so they can help me and comfort me, but i don't have anyone to do that. I cry probably almost everyday. I cry myself to sleep a lot.
5. i love the Twilight series. whenever i want to be put in a good mood and feel happy, i go and read it. and even if i just want to cry, i go and read it.
6. i don't have any real friends. i don't think i ever have. except for one person that's come pretty close...Brenna Lutz. we've been best friends since 6th grade.
7. I'm really artistic and creative. i think that's my gift, not being smart, but having an artistic side.
8. i dream about being a famous fashion designer and living either in New York on the Upper East Side, LA in Beverly Hills, or in Newport Beach, right on the water.
9. If fashion doesn't work out, i want to be a photographer.
10. I love my sisters. They are amazing examples to me, and i wish i can be living in Utah with them.
11. Even though my brother annoys me beyond belief, i tell him almost everything. He always knows who i like and everything. He's the one i vent to. and i can almost fully trust him not to spill all of my secrets.
12. i really want a boy. haha. somebody i can just hold and hug and kiss. someone to keep me warm and that i can tell everything to. someone who won't judge me, and will always be there for me.
13. i HATE dances. homecoming, prom, church dances, whatever. i hate them. I'll try everything to get out of them. they're stupid and awkward and immature.
14. but i love to dance. mostly lyrical and jazz. i wish i started dancing when i was 5 so i would be amazing right now, but whatever. i guess I'm pretty good. at least, that's what people tell me. and i love watching ballets. i wish i was a ballerina. it's the most beautiful thing. it's calming and peaceful and graceful. i love it.
15. i love to read. but I'm a horrible reader. i read super slow, and i get distracted easily. a lot of the time I'll read a sentence without really reading it, so i have to read it again and again until I'm really focused and i know what it's saying.
16. i love to cook and bake. i think it would be cool to have my own bakery or cafe someday. like in stranger than fiction or something.
17. I don't feel like i belong in my family. i never have. i always feel left out and not wanted. i don't know where i belong. also with friends- i have never felt really truly wanted.
18. i have asthma and 80% of the time, it's really hard for me to breathe. it sucks
19. i cannot wait for my future. i want so much to get married and have kids. i want 5. three girls and two boys. i don't usually tell people that because they'll think I'm weird. but i really love kids. the reason i want 5 is because of a family i used to babysit a lot- the Dalands. they have 5 kids, they're not the easiest to take care of, but they're amazing and they love each other. that's what i want.
20. i want to build my dream house. somewhere super close to the ocean, with a lot of land and a nice view.
21. i love going to concerts
22. I'm a really easy movie critic. i fall in love with basically every movie i see. but there are definitely some i don't like.
23. i have headaches every day, and i think i might be addicted to ibuprofen.
24. i really like learning, but I'm just not very good at it.
25. I love listening to classical music. it's the kinda nerdy side of me. but i love it. it makes me so calm and happy. and sometimes sad, if i want it to make me sad. haha
Monday, February 2, 2009
GRAND CHAMPS
Welll...a picture's worth a thousand words!!
Yepp, T.O. got 6 first places, 2 second, and 1 third. and of course, BEST TEAM OVERALL. CHAMPIONS OF WEST COAST ELITE!!! plus $1,000!!!
Saturday was amazing. =]
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I FINALLY
got my iPod backk =] on Wednesday! i was so excited when it came in the mail! i don't think you even understand. Plus Brianna sent us some yummy fudge from the BYU bookstore =] so nice.
let me just tell you whyyy it was in Utah for like 2 weeks. well the night Kayla and Brianna were leaving to go back to Utah after winter break, i spent like 2-3 hours just putting music on it from Kayla's computer. then i plugged it in to Brianna's computer. she came home from a wedding reception she was at and they were rushing to finish packing because they thought they'd have more time. she told me she had to pack up her computer. so i unplugged my mom's iPod and it came out fine. when i ejected mine, the DO NOT DISCONNECT screen wouldn't go away, so i didn't disconnect it. but she really had to go so she just pulled it out. she said it would be fine, she did it all the time. well they left and about an hour later i went to listen to my new music. i turn it on and EVRYTHING IS GONE. i almost had a heart attack. i call her and said she deleted all of my music. she was like oh crap I'm so sorry, mail it to me and I'll put all the music back on. so i did, and that's why it was out of commission and recovering in Utah for 2 weeks. poor ipod.
i love my iPod. but sometimes i can really hate it. (obviously) and i talk to it and yell at it. so i decided to name it...Bella. hahaa so stupid but i think it fits. i love Bella (talking about both of them i guess haha) but i can really hate her sometimes and the decisions she decides to make. she can be really stupid. sooo my ipod is named Bella =]
let me just tell you whyyy it was in Utah for like 2 weeks. well the night Kayla and Brianna were leaving to go back to Utah after winter break, i spent like 2-3 hours just putting music on it from Kayla's computer. then i plugged it in to Brianna's computer. she came home from a wedding reception she was at and they were rushing to finish packing because they thought they'd have more time. she told me she had to pack up her computer. so i unplugged my mom's iPod and it came out fine. when i ejected mine, the DO NOT DISCONNECT screen wouldn't go away, so i didn't disconnect it. but she really had to go so she just pulled it out. she said it would be fine, she did it all the time. well they left and about an hour later i went to listen to my new music. i turn it on and EVRYTHING IS GONE. i almost had a heart attack. i call her and said she deleted all of my music. she was like oh crap I'm so sorry, mail it to me and I'll put all the music back on. so i did, and that's why it was out of commission and recovering in Utah for 2 weeks. poor ipod.
i love my iPod. but sometimes i can really hate it. (obviously) and i talk to it and yell at it. so i decided to name it...Bella. hahaa so stupid but i think it fits. i love Bella (talking about both of them i guess haha) but i can really hate her sometimes and the decisions she decides to make. she can be really stupid. sooo my ipod is named Bella =]
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