valentine's busttt

ok soo i've been sick since tuesday, and have been home since then. no school, no friends...i'm miserableee.
and on valentine's day??? yeah really sucks!!!

so right now i feel like i'm going to throw up. i thought i was almost better, but i guess not. :[

and i really wanted to hang out with my friends today and the rest of the weekend!
now i have a ton of work to do...PLUS we have a FIVE DAY WEEKEND!!!
i betterrr be better by tomorrow MORNING!!

i am not wasting these good five days of no school!!

lost

ok. i don't exactly know what to do.
i'm not sure if i should do track or not =/
it's a lot of fun and stuff, but hard of course.
the problem is that my left leg has decided to be completely helpless. i'm actually i really good and fast sprinter. but with this gay ass quad, i can't even lift my leg up...so i can't run fast. i know i'm really good, but i havent been able to show it b/c of this. idk why its doing this, its never done it before. its a pain like none other. the trainer said i damaged my muscle. which probably isnt too good. idk how long its going to take it to heal. hopefully not long.
but my other problem is that i dont know if i should even do track or not. and this thought goes through my head a billion times a day. and i dont know the answer.
if i do track...i never really have time for hw b/c i have to wait till 4:15 for mi madre to pick me up. then i procrastinate like none other (like i am now)and i kinda have deciding just not to do some of my hw. which is really stupid. and i'm always going to be hurt. which will really effect my dancing. and the days i have dance after school, i basically have like 1 or 2 hours to do my hw. not good.
those are basically all of the cons.
the pros are mostly just like always being in shape...hanging out with my friends...and track meets are way fun. oh and missing school some days. which can also be a con b/c i fall back in school work pretty easily.
the reason why i was going to do track in the first place was b/c my best friends were in it and wanted me to do it. and plus when they left at lunch for meets, i had to go hangout w/ my dance friends, which werent all that great. but nowww me and my best friends...arent my best friends anymore. so i really dont know why i still wanted to go out for track. but i want them back more than anything. so i'm kinda hoping that track will bring us together again.
that is my hugest want right now i think.
they were the best friends i've ever had. and our friendship was ruined b/c of a stupid guy.
but thats a story i dont have time telling right now.
maybe some other time.
i have to focus on whether im going to do track or not.
huge decision.
really is.

new dance. new friend!

ok, so i have to talk about my day today...
well one big highlight i think was in dance. second period. we were learning more to our class dance that we started learning yesterday. it turns out that it's actually a really gay dance. in my opinion at least. it's to "diamonds are a girls' best friend". but fifth period did a dance to this song last year at concert. ya i know, EMBARRASSING!! well anyways...in our formation, i stand at the end of the second row, next to this girl amy. i've always thought she's really pretty, and a really good dancer. and she seemed way nice and friendly and stuff. i havent ever really talked to her that much. but now that we stand next to each in the dance, we talk a lottt. we go over parts together...which leads to laughing and messing up together. haha today was so funny. because we both see how gay the dance is, and at this one part at the end, we start cracking up!! then we just end up standing there, laughing, instead of dancing. but yeah, i was really excited that i basically met a new person in that class, and we're probably going to become more than just two people that stand next to eachother in a dance. i hope. she seems way chill. so i can't wait to see what happens. by the end of the year, maybe we'll be like best friends! i guess we'll see!

k, so later, after school, the guy i have been IN LOVE with since this summer (we're like really good friends, but i still am in love with him.) saw me walking with a few of my friends...not best friends, but really good friends...and he like stopped where he was headed to, and started walking with me!! eee BIG SMILE!! he walked with me all the way to get my track bag, and every time we talk, we have so much to talk about, and we laugh and stuff. ahh i love him so much! i wish he like always walked with me. we have a few classes together, and we eat lunch at the same place, but it's just better when its just us, without both of our friends around. i dont know why though. but it works! every time i see him i just want to jump on him and hug him. he gives the best hugs in the world by the way. like seriously. and i probably can hug him everytime i see him, but i kinda am self concious around him, b/c i dont want him to think im super weird or anything. but yeah, that was a pretty big highlight. =]

PEACEEEE

pointless, but what ev

ok, so i found out about blogger from my sister. it's pretty cool. i write blogs on my myspace, but i dont like it so much. i write a lot in my journal, but then i get writer's cramp...blah blah blah. and i'm on the computer way more often than just lounging around. so i figured i'll just have my journal on here. people probably won't read this, and that's totally fine by me. i actually would prefer it. most things i put on here will be really embarrassing and such. mostly me gushing, complaing, yuh knoww. oh and i say weird words that i dont really know how to spell sometimes, so probably only i will understand them. basically...i talk in major slanggg...oh and i put a lot of extra letters on my words. haha.
alright sooo yeah. thats basically it.
i'm going to try to post a blog or a few a day, just talkin about my day and what evs. boring stuff. but i would like to remember these things, and that's why i'm doing this.
okkk i really need to be doing my homework right now...so till next time =]
PEACE

this is me.

i'm outgoing.

but i can be extremely shy and nervous.

i am creative and original.

i love meeting new people.

but i can usually tell if i'll like you or not right off the bat.

i have so many dreams and goals in life; it's kinda overwhelming.

i can be pretty funny at times, and i'm fun to be around.

i am most usually in a good mood.

i hate losing friends for stupid reasons.

i have so many thoughts that it's annoying and it feels like my head is going to explode.

i take pictures nonstop.

it frustrates me.

i've done a lot of stupid things.

i regret them, but i know things happen for a reason.

i have to believe that.